The "thinking game" and the "feeling game"

So far it works fine with having 2 accounts, one for short games in between and one for long serious games. But often i found my self playing fast (and sometimes stupid) moves even when i still have long thinking time.
This  has to do something with my personality and it makes a good example on how you can learn about your self - and maybe work on some bad habbits- through playing Go!

Sometimes it feels to me like that there are 2 different games ... the one where you can follow your intuition, where you "feel" your next move and ... the one where you really think through variations and possible answers of your opponent. But there aren`t 2 games!
There are, even in games with long thinking time, a lot of situations where you can`t think it through, go allways has both aspects... the right brain thing and the left brain thing! :-)
This reminds me of a book i once read "Zone Press Park" from O Meien ... he talks about finite and non-finite Go.

Here a quote from Senseis Library  

O Meien discusses the concepts he calls "infinite" vs. "finite" go. A position in go is "finite" if it's possible for the player to find the best move through reading. It's when the game is constrained and the possibilities are limited. It is clear he doesn't like this, and his technique of the "zone press" (a term borrowed from Japanese soccer) is designed to avoid it, and push the game into a state he calls "infinite," meaning a position where it is not clear to either player what the best move is, but there is nevertheless a pressure for his opponent to do something to reduce the dominance of his "number one zone", which is the area with the most potential on the board. 

Howsoever... i think i make good progress and the most important thing:
i enjoy playing again very much. And few weeks ago i realised something very very simple and very very important:
I have to be good at solving Life&Death problems  in order to become a stronger player one day! 
It is that simple and you can read about this in many books or on the internet ... and go teachers will point out as well ... but when i remeber a few months ago i really did not like to solve L&D ... i hate it because i was not good at it. But as soon as i fully accepted that in order to become a dan player one day ... i have to incrase my reading ability somehow ... i started to see solving L&D as a challenge to overcome myself and to learn how to fully concentrate.
There are only 3 possibilities:
1. Learn how to solve hard L&D and (maybe!)
become a dan player one day.
2. Don`t learn and stay a kgs 6 kyu.
3. Don`t learn and stop playing.

By the way i will not continue with posting every long game here... but some of them.
I`m sorry if my english is not very good  :-) 
Have a nice game!

 “Competition and faith are my life-long vocations. Like water and fire, I depend on both. When I couldn’t outrank the others, it was time for me to leave. There are two things in my life, truth and Go.” Go Seigen

Replaying A Pro Game

I just replayed the following game at GoGameWorld.com ... with a lot of interesting comments by Kim Jisuk 7p.
Of course i don`t want to violate any copyright, so i`m sharing it without the commentary... 
By the way, it is very sad that GoGameWorld.com seems to have some troubles and will not exists any longer the way we know it...
On the website it says:
"Important Notice on Oct. 4th: Due to personal matters, we are not able to maintain this site on regular basis, and we may close this site in a year, but we will try to continue adding games for a couple of months. In the meantime, we are looking for a new owner, if you or somebody you know is interested to continue or make any kind of deal, please contact us at tianbi@gogameworld.com. Thank your support for all these years!"  
Anyway... it was a very interesting game for me to replay ... a lot of things were wondering me... for example:
1. How could white allow black to kill his group following  black-31 ...  i would never think that this situation is kind of equal ... i would have bet a lot of money on black! :-) But following the commentary white did not make a mistake so far.
2. Black-39 was very surprising for me ... i think i would have played a silly invasion at the bottom or a extension on the 4 line on the top or the upper right side ... i think this move is a good inspiration ...
3. In the end it was a half point game!!? Without the commentary and without counting i would have been sure that black has a huge lead...
"The final game 3 of 3rd World BC Card Cup was held on 4/26, as a result Lee Sedol 9p overturned the situation in the end and edged over Gu Li 9p by half point, taking 2:1 lead in best-of-5 final. " GoGameWorld News Section 

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RU[Japanese]SZ[19]KM[6.50]
GN[Lee-Sedol_Gu-Li]PW[Gu Li]PB[Lee Sedol]WR[9p]BR[9p]DT[2011-04-26]EV[3rd BCcard Cup World Baduk Championship]RO[final 3]SO[Go4Go.net]RE[B+0.50]
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“You should look at the board and play wherever you want to. This is the way to get stronger.” Takemiya Masaki